Desolation.....

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

~another stupid post from me~

ahm...

i think its better for me to forget you...

you're just bringing me stupid problems w/o you, knowing it...haiszt!

how foolish ryt?!having a feeling you're not rlly sure...having sum1 whom you cared but he doesn't show some care 4 u...how one-sided!

this "thing" i am feeling ryt now...ha its all stupidity right?!

i dont wanna encounter again dat feeling...

it is so desolated..so heart-wrenching...

ha...ill start agen and agen...w/o you in my life...

maybe..we're not rlly meant for each other ryt?!

haha how dramatic...but who knows we are both heading the same journey as of now...

there are so many chances.....

chances that are surreal, so unviable...

>despaired_cheng.006<

1st week of my College lyf

haha..finally im college...
It is so fun being a college student..well im a really busy nowadays that's why i think i will be gone for a while in the blogging world...
huhuhu
btw i will still post some topics here..but not always, got it?!maybe thrice a month haha
so well bye...
-cheng

raeza goes to SM

haha...its our 2nd year of friendship that's why we have considered the idea of celebrating it in SM Fairview........we met here in our house around 9 am then we walked going to "labasan",.






We took a bus to Sm, when we arrived there it is around 10:15 so we waited there until it opened....

Our first stop was the Dept. Store well we do not really buy anything there haha..then when we took the exit we saw the Paper Clay Art stall so we give it a try...







We Finished the clay art around 11 am so we decided to have lunch at Food Court....haha











After eating lunch we headed to Storyland and have some fun. We really enjoyed a lot those token operated games there haha we even earned a lot of tickets and we were able to claim our prize their....






After being hooked up to those games we decided to go Videoke....haha it costs 7 pesos per token....i think we sang 3 or 4 songs...














Then we went to Dunkin Donut well to buy "pasalubong" and to have a snack as well..its around 2 pm here...







After having some rest and snack...we went to Annex and well just hangout there...then we just inquired in TimeZone about the membership card and we went to buy a BFF ring and my gift for my Father, then we headed to National Bookstore and bought some greeting cards and in Papemelrotti where Eliza bought a poster...


















After that we just take a quick tour to Blue Magic then we went home around 4 pm...





Ahm...we I got off in Northridge and take a tricycle while she got off in Palmera... We really enjoyed today haha,.we had so much fun!!!!!I swear...We are planning to see each other again maybe on Jun.17....We are planning to visit our teachers and cadets there in YDPS, I also have to return Maam Nailyn's book haha...

-cheng

>>>>>>>>ahm next post maybe about Independence Day or Father's Day or maybe just random posts,..haha<<<<<<<<<<<<

my Orientation

Okei, we went to OLFU around 7:30 am then got there around 8 sharp just in time before our orientation starts. The orientation for Freshmen and Transferees were located at VSB bldg. AVR 1 and AVR 2. Luckily in my sked it written that im in AVR 1. We waited for i think 10 mins. then the head in charge assists us to AVR 1, wherein we fill up a form including our section, no. and date today(the name and course were already written there). Then we proceed to the AVR 1. The room was kinda cold coz' of the AC's ofcourse then when we were almost complete, teh Orientation Program begun.

In teh said orientation, the emcee, one of the English professors I guess, tackled all about Fatima(obviously)haha, its facilities, services, academic programs, courses and activities they provide for the students in the said University. There are also intermission numbers that are presented to us, one of those were from the Peer Counselors of OLFU(ahm their the students) who've perform a dance number in the tune of " Pokerface". They're quite good but I think our group(CRAZY MIXED) were much better than them haha (sorry!)....another was from the College of Hotel and Restaurant Management, wherein they have sampled us some of the basics and tricks in BArtending. The whole program were mostly runned by a Powerpoint presentation. We've quite enjoyed it and learned something from it.

After the Orientation which finished around 11 am, I headed to the rooms for Relaesing of I.D, then in the Blood Extraction room( grr i hate needles,...it freaked me out alot though i do love blood haha) and finally to the X-ray waiting room area, wherein I saw Maxe also going in the line for X-ray, though i 've finished earlier that's why we headed home early.

On monday, i think i'll be signing up for the campus orgs. that i m gonna join. THen when I've gathered enough acquiantances on 15 maybe get my Library card as well...

Well thats it my, Orientation experience.
bye2x

>>>>>>>>>>>next post, Raeza10 goes to SM...api aniv Bes!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

its my June 8(extra)

yoh haha wazzup...well my post was about our another hangout time with my "bes"...here at my home...

She arrived around 1:30 pm then we watch a movie,"Walt Disney's Bedtime Story". But unfortunately the 2nd discs malfunctioned so we were not able to finish it. So we just play some Audio CD. We chit chat, and use net as a past time haha....she went home around 5:30 pm

Yo, here are the pictures haha


>>>haha wyl cooking our snack....PAncit canton yumyum!



>>>>PAncit canton yum yum... >>>>picture at our kitchen





>>>shots taken in our dining












>>>>shots wyl eating ^-^




>>>>at the kitchen >>>>Sala area

For my "bes"

"Give me friends or give me death". A life without friendship is terrible and lonely. We are social beings and friendship is an incredibly important part of our lives. Appreciating friends is something we must always make time for. In today's competitive world it is easy to get up in our careers or our latest project. It is important to keep a sense of perspective. It is nice to rise high in the company but all the money in the world is not going to keep you company on a cold winter night.

Best Friends means different things to different people. Some insist that you can have only one best friend. Others assert that they have best friends for different aspects of their personalities. Whatever the precise definition, your best friend is the person who gets you. They understand who you are and what you are saying. The greatest distance cannot separate best friends. You will always feel a kinship with them, and be able to instantly continue the friendship even after not talking for many years.

I have my best friend,.i really don't know how we become this close...all i know was that she's always there whenever i need someone to talk to...she knew almost everything about me, she supported me in every decisions i made, she truly cared for me, she comprehends me and my insanity... we share secrets about resentment, happiness, solitude, wrath, absurdity and love....haha...she is a must-have companion in life...how dramatic...

We met when we are in our 1st year in high school...Our mothers somewhat knew each other...we always go home together that time despite the fact that we were from different sections...we were not that close that time...we seldom talk to each other....same during our 2nd year,but we during those times we do talk to each other but not that open...everything changed when we became Juniors..unexpectedly we became close to each other...we were in a same section that time and also we were part of CAT-1...haha...even our officers those times mistook that she is my buddy haha...our friendship grew stronger due to our bonding in COCC times and ofcourse during class hours....everything stayed the same when we became Seniors...but there are times that we had arguments yet we always resolved it...our bonding and friendship beacem much, much stronger this time...we spent our times together...eventhough we do have different businesses in life we were still close...yeah that's what friends are for!!!!! We had enjoyed our Senior life very much..especially those times that we laugh together, cry together and get fussy over silly things....haha i will never forget that i swear..we even used each other as a messenger for those people that we can't have a talk one-on-one haha....eventhough we already graduated in our high school we still continue our bonding moments...now i think we are going almost more than 2 years of friendship...haha...

When I’m Lonely your there for me, and when I’m Hurt you care for me, when I’m lost in this world of great unknowns you help me find my way out, you'd never leave me standing on a corner in the rain, you pick up the pieces when I’m going completely insane, there are times when no one should be able to understand me but you always do, My mind explodes I tell you everything I could never be untrue, I cant picture my life with you not there, and whenever I feel like no one cares, you come to my rescue and set my mind free, and I know I’m so lucky to be the best friend of you.

Here's a poem I dedicate for you Bes...


I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
But I can always be your "bes"...

-Raechelle Manalo

I really want to thank you, Bes..Joy Eliza Luga...for being there for the times I really need someone...i wrote this post for you...it just suddenly pop out in my mind and i can't help but to write it....haha hope you like it Bes...ahm good luck in our college life! Hope our friendship last longer...hmm...thank you very much for everything,

>>>Kita-kitz n lng poh sa 10 haha...9:30 huh!!!kelangn nandun n tau sa may arko!!!
mishu n poh bes!!!!kip safe n lng poh...comment k d2 sa akin post huh?!

........next post ahm College Orientation q.......