life be damned...

bullshit..i've never cried that hard in my life...all those shits suddenly got infront of me...jealousy and family problem...anything else to add on?!friendship problem?count that in...

i've never experienced that thing in my life until now...who would have thought right?i almost breakdown...i've got no one to hold on in here,no shoulder to cry on...im all alone with this whole damn thing...

what am i a robot?a mutant?a doll?so you thought that with the words both of you were blurting was not hurting me?it really hurts..it really do hurts...

seriously i really can't take this anymore..i dont even know how i am able to hold on until now..now that my dear cousin will never be coming back here anymore after they're damned argument with my parents...bullshit...he was just worried about
me,he just care for my safety. Now they're blaming Jay about what had happened to me...is there anything wrong that had happened to me?they can't assume that i become distant to them coz im still just the same,no changes....then whats the whole reason of their drama awhile ago....then now they act so kind to me...am i in a asyllum?

im really confused..i really need someone whom i can pour all my emotions out...cry all my tears until there are no left..now that ive come to know that you also have a problem,.really make me worried.hope both of us be able to surpass this all shits..kuso...life be damned...