its not an ordinary infatuation

- You gave me a reason for my being

And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life,
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you. -

I love GERARD WAY, . .yah it may sound silly or such a foolishness for others...but there are certain things that made me really obsessed with GEE...and IDK why!



Only thing I know was,.
From the day that I've heard his music, it gave me new perception in life...his views through his songs it gave me enough inspiration....
I've learned that LIFE is not only about jovial things but also about Death....


I've come to love his views,songs and all about him..I even have a picture of him in my wallet...
At first, I do considered myself only as an ordinary fan of Gerard...but later on this fan-thing of mine turns something else that I can't imagine I would really do nor feel...

I've come to love everything about him...i even researched all the facts about him....Now I know I am not just an ordinary fan of My Chemical Romance/Gee but I consider Gee as my soul....my life..

It may not be obvious...that I, a happy,kind,positive and cheerful girl, can also feel such depressions in life and be a secretive girl...everything start to be a burden to me...that I can't longer handle on...I cry myself to sleep...I've become a loner...but I always hide it when my friends are around...I do not want others to know about what are those things bothering me...

One friend says <>...yet my other friends told "NOT" and "DONT"....I'm happy to know that one friend realizes about the true me..which is ELIZA...thanks for that!

" EMO is made for us not us made for EMO... "
-Ace-

My other friends tend to insult the real me...in short they don't accept the real me...this leads for me to become much more lonely..."GIMPER" according to Sir Davis...well luckily there are few people who can understand me...

i thought I'm the only experiencing worse things, I mean depressions in life..until I met JONNA RIKA...well I'm really amazed how sincere she was in her obsession with GERARD...I really like her too...she is so cute and very strong for me...ooopps...

I can't help not to listen in any My Chemical Romance songs..it become my daily routine..I always have my iPod on my side containing all those MCR songs ^^......

Because of GERARD, I've learned how to be myself....

" Be Yourself, Do not Take anyone's Shit and
Never Let them to take You Alive... "
-Gerard Way-

I definitely believe with that,...from that day I've met Gee...
I've come to hold his words of wisdom.....

Basically, gerard shows me the way to my true self...the real me....I can't compare anyone with Gee...-He is my soul, my life...he is ver everything about me...-

I've come to accept all things about life and death....happiness and sadness, companionship and loneliness, despair and peace of mind...he showed me how to accept those things.....Rejection....Revenge...Forgiving...I thanks him a lot...he changed me....

He will always be my priority, my idol, my inspiration to pursue my dreams and aspirations...
I dont accept people's insults and malicious judgments to them....
One day, I'll meet him....and know him...

" If you looked in the mirror and don't like what you see,
you can find out first-hand what is like to be me,
so gather round, kiss goodbye
I'd encourage your smile, I expect you won't cry... "

-We'll Carry On!!!-

-So long and Goodnight!!!-

>>Eliza, thanks for always understanding me...your really indeed my best friend....
I will keep my promise to you...especially this coming school year....mwuaahh....

>>Rika, tnx again...you've taught me many things about MCR/Gerard that I don't know before...love yahh....

>>To my other friends...its up to you if you will accpet me for what I am or not...it will just prove that you're not a true friend...

Guys please remember....

-A true friend is someone who accept what his/her friend really is...-

Well that's all again...see you around my next post.....

Oyasumi Nasai!!!
Sayonara^^

ja ne >_< -raech_06-