i've made my decision

ahm....i have thought about this for a while...

there's nothing wrong in giving you a chance right?!

i can feel your care and determination....

and i adore you because of that....

this is it...

hope we can both work this out...

but please don't break me again....

i'm tired of being broken okei?!

love lots...^-^

>cheng.006<

miserable?!ha thats the best description to my lyf!

haiszt...dpat ata muna aq lumayo ahh
hmmm....
khit mhirap....
kc prang nauulet n nman ang nangyare sken dati....
lumayo n lng kaya aq noh?!
pra tlgah aqng tanga.....

okei nman kc nung una ehh...kaso ayan n nman ang kinaiinisan q n pang-aasar ng tropa...lalayo n lng muna aq sa inio...sa iyo....

auq kc ng feeling nah lumalayo ang tinuturing q n...bazta....nakakainiz tlagah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bket b lge n lng nauulit ang nkaraan?!
nagsasawa n aq!!!!!!!!!
kainis!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ang tanga q kc noh?!
isa aqng baliw,tanga,manhid,walng kwentang babae!!!!!!
>miserable.cheng.006<

just stop it already!

tell me why are we always like this?!

i tried to do my best...
to make things work out once more...
but you suddenly pull off your grip...

i can't do anything but to weep and be depressed. While you are enjoying and continuing your life like nothing happened.

Through all those months that you left me alone...i tried my best to forget you..but not to forgive you...

Now i finally have the strength to continue my life the way it really is, yet you come again in my life..

bugging and confusing me...coming back to me asking me to forgive you...

to work and sort things out again...how stupid...

im tired okay?!

just let me go now...im happy with my life...

stop haunting me with our miserable past... that's right miserable...

coz i never felt any joy being with you..that's the truth..just accept it okay?!

stop being BITTER...


>cheng.006<

Desolation.....

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

~another stupid post from me~

ahm...

i think its better for me to forget you...

you're just bringing me stupid problems w/o you, knowing it...haiszt!

how foolish ryt?!having a feeling you're not rlly sure...having sum1 whom you cared but he doesn't show some care 4 u...how one-sided!

this "thing" i am feeling ryt now...ha its all stupidity right?!

i dont wanna encounter again dat feeling...

it is so desolated..so heart-wrenching...

ha...ill start agen and agen...w/o you in my life...

maybe..we're not rlly meant for each other ryt?!

haha how dramatic...but who knows we are both heading the same journey as of now...

there are so many chances.....

chances that are surreal, so unviable...

>despaired_cheng.006<

1st week of my College lyf

haha..finally im college...
It is so fun being a college student..well im a really busy nowadays that's why i think i will be gone for a while in the blogging world...
huhuhu
btw i will still post some topics here..but not always, got it?!maybe thrice a month haha
so well bye...
-cheng

raeza goes to SM

haha...its our 2nd year of friendship that's why we have considered the idea of celebrating it in SM Fairview........we met here in our house around 9 am then we walked going to "labasan",.






We took a bus to Sm, when we arrived there it is around 10:15 so we waited there until it opened....

Our first stop was the Dept. Store well we do not really buy anything there haha..then when we took the exit we saw the Paper Clay Art stall so we give it a try...







We Finished the clay art around 11 am so we decided to have lunch at Food Court....haha











After eating lunch we headed to Storyland and have some fun. We really enjoyed a lot those token operated games there haha we even earned a lot of tickets and we were able to claim our prize their....






After being hooked up to those games we decided to go Videoke....haha it costs 7 pesos per token....i think we sang 3 or 4 songs...














Then we went to Dunkin Donut well to buy "pasalubong" and to have a snack as well..its around 2 pm here...







After having some rest and snack...we went to Annex and well just hangout there...then we just inquired in TimeZone about the membership card and we went to buy a BFF ring and my gift for my Father, then we headed to National Bookstore and bought some greeting cards and in Papemelrotti where Eliza bought a poster...


















After that we just take a quick tour to Blue Magic then we went home around 4 pm...





Ahm...we I got off in Northridge and take a tricycle while she got off in Palmera... We really enjoyed today haha,.we had so much fun!!!!!I swear...We are planning to see each other again maybe on Jun.17....We are planning to visit our teachers and cadets there in YDPS, I also have to return Maam Nailyn's book haha...

-cheng

>>>>>>>>ahm next post maybe about Independence Day or Father's Day or maybe just random posts,..haha<<<<<<<<<<<<