why do I keep crying after I've heard his words a while ago?
I just can't help it, what can I do. I tried to divert my attention by doing other stuffs, still I ended up crying.

I felt I am stab in the heart after he had spoken those words. And it really really hurts. I already told him that I will be leaving early, but still I waited him in his room, thinking he will go there to rest, and yes he did, but not to rest, only to get stuffs coz he's going again.

I fell asleep while waiting for him, I FELL ASLEEP CRYING.
My tears flows down my cheeks just like how the rain is pouring right now. I look pathetic but I don't care. Right now, I fear. I am scared because I felt like he is going to be apart from me little by little, then to the point that he had other girl.IDK.

I wish the rain stops so my tears will also stop flowing down .